yanilavigne:

It doesnt mean that if you dont feel something for each other anymore, the love is gone. If love were only feelings, then there’s no such thing as lasting. Love can sometimes turn numb or even be boring. You just have to be patient ‘cause love itself is life. Not all the time you are in for all its happiness, sometimes you also have to give in to its bitterness. But no matter what, as long as you choose and decide to continue, it will be more beautiful.

-Jamich

(Source: sobrangselosa)

I want to feel hurt, but I can’t.

I want to cry out the tears, yet they just wouldn’t fall.

I thought I am numb, but I am apparently not.

I can’t think, but thinking is the best possible thing I could do in the mean time

How do I feel I don’t know, nor I could tell people what about

I am in the stage of confusion, but my heart still in its place last time I checked

I try to dig it deep, still nothing

I come to the conclusion that I am still standing fine, I am

A good friendship is what I’m after, a best friend is what I need

at least I’m prepared

o well, life, here I come again :)

I am such a romantic person. I think about romance and how ideally it should happen, thanks to all the dramas and soap operas I watch on TV

but I realise, it’s not the case in dealing with reality. I realise that the thing I wish and I want is not basically the thing that happen in life. In contrary, life pushes me to be rational

I know things don’t happen like that. but I solely wish if it could.

I know it’s not only me, but it also the problem of lots of girls in the world.

Movies don’t really help your love life, nor your life in general. Neither does the self-help books. they might inspiring and give ideas on how to solve your problem, but in the end, the one that could help you is yourself only.

I love the idea of how life, career, family, love, should happen. I just know that idea and the implementation usually goes different way. yet people trapped with those ideal thought of it.

to be honest, reality nice but dream nicer. but dreams take you nowhere if then you only put your life without trying to live your life.

good morning, TGIF

chasingthelasttrain:

A picture began circulating in November. It should be “The Picture of the Year,” or perhaps, “Picture of the Decade.” It won’t be. In fact, unless you obtained a copy of the U.S. paper which published it, you probably would never have seen it.

The picture is that of a 21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner. The baby was diagnosed with spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother’s womb. Little Samuel’s mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta. She knew of Dr. Bruner’s remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville, he performs these special operations while the baby is still in the womb.

During the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon’s finger. Dr. Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile.

The photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors titled the picture, “Hand of Hope.” The text explaining the picture begins, “The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas emerges from the mother’s uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life.”

Little Samuel’s mother said they “wept for days” when they saw the picture. She said, “The photo reminds us pregnancy isn’t about disability or an illness, it’s about a little person” Samuel was born in perfect health, the operation 100 percent successful. Now see the actual picture, and it is awesome…incredible….and hey, pass it on! The world needs to see this one!

Life would not always ideal as we might fantasize in our mind. lots of unfairness, lots of grieve, and it won’t always black and white.

couldn’t say that things will always go our way, but that what makes life’s colorful, and the best part is life is a learning process. it makes us mature in some ways.

take it. embrace life. for that way you earn the meaning of your existence.

Last Saturday was the project event for the project member! Kerry and Abe (Ladies of PMO) came with this fun idea “Amazing Race”

Like what you see in the TV shows (but wayyyy simpler and in shorter time), we were having fun hoping here and there exploring and finishing all the challenges they gave us

Group-Strike-a-Pose like a plane in Airport Challenge, Find-the-hidden-clue while Kayaking in the Yacht Club Challenge, Make-the-messy-bed at the Guest House Challenge…those some fun stuff to do at the weekend with friends

We also did some DaVinci-wannabe challenge by trying to paint Monalisa (We laughed hard with the sexy-contemporer-repro of the painting made by Pak Syafrinal and team), and made some simple ‘cars’ out of woods to win the last race.

Our Team’s wheels were broken (alias pecah) by the time they try to push the car with me sitting upon it! I need to clarify publicly that it didn’t happen because I gained weigh, but because they were little tires and they’ve been use in such inappropriate condition thus they blown up! the bad thing was it happened while it was my turn, LOL

i’m going to post the picture later after Abe’s upload them to the share folders :)

I had a fun weekend!

Soroako, We’re having fun!

photo sessions in the crystal clear lake, hanging out at the only bar in town, celebrating the birthdays and the Roll-offs’, playing at Matabuntu waterfall. These are only a little of many magnificent activities around

well yeah, we do miss city a lot. but it’s worth it. this place, the project, worth all the sacrifices of city gurls ;)

this is small town. i’m a small town girl (with big city heart. #eh).

well, i don’t actually know why i started my blog with that kind of preface. anyway, i miss writing in my blog. i miss my blog like a girl misses her boyfriend (no kidding). i wonder if i should have a relationship with my blog rather than a real person (this is kidding).

to sum up my day, I started the morning with the Mining Site Tour (yes, a frickin’ Nickel Mining tour!), take pictures here and there like a tourist, and end this evening with a dinner in a nice restaurant in this town.

i pissed because of unimportant things (blame the hormones in me), but well today is such a fine day and i don’t plan on ruining it.

i treated my hair earlier this afternoon, the result wasn’t that bad.

errr….to be honest, i just miss my besties. i enjoy it here so far, but i miss on meeting and sharing stories with them. i miss how we would cherish each other even when we’re not meeting that often. i miss our hang outs time. i just miss being with them. and this small town didn’t help my friend-sickness because they don’t have any Cinema around, no bookstores, and no decent shop to buy cute clothes! all of the things i usually went for when i feel like running away, or bored.

nevertheless, i should feel thankful. this opportunity is something not everyone can have everyday.

i feel confuse on certain things in life. but i guess that is normal. as normal as a person need to eat 3 times a day (naon?).

a girl who need a purpose,
-Amelia-

a friend asked my whether i’m cool now, with my feeling she means. i think i’m cool. cool enough to settle with my previous normal condition. try to be as independent as i could be ;)

so yeah, i saw this cutie the first day i stepped into this forest-like town. not the kinda of guy who will attract you with a single sight. he’s not commonly charming, but for me, he’s quite attractive. i dare say this publicly, i feel surprise myself. i think i am having fun around :p

i think i have this fetish for a smart-ass guy (euwh, i hope i don’t make it sound kinky). but long story short, he’s no longer available. so yeah, until this time i could only stare at him if we accidentaly show up (yet not together) at the same time on TAB (place where almost people have food here). dare i say i have my heart broken? lol, it’s still a long way for the situation to make me devastated. i think i’ve lost a good catch (although my friends told me it’s still okay cause he’s not yet married—->always the same craazy suggestion, lol), but enjoying the panorama won’t hurt the eyes ;)

i make myself busy(less) lately with the jobs, and the blogs. it’s kinda a slow-down phase for my team, so work has been lovely in terms of man-hours i spend in the office.

earlier this afternoon i surfed some big firms, started to think where should i go after this project end. i still in some intersections, not yet decide where to go. i’ve got lots of plans and one big dream to catch, but which road should i take has been a big of a problem i need to resolve.

oh well, life would never be as fun if we know everything beforehand. still working on my spiritual life, and smoothly moving on from my past. :)

off and over,
Amelia

i’m this kind of human who sometimes get extremely happy over small things. there are countless of times when I feel happy in such quirky situation, over something that even my peer could not understand why.

it gets too much sometimes, even for me. as i try to embrace happy feeling as long as i could, but the way i deliver it doesn’t pretty well sometimes :p

well, it just me nevertheless..

-happy.girl.on.the.move-

fact: the project i’m working in, now has rescheduled their Go-Live date and postpone it for 2 months (4th of July)

I might should be more sensitive when talking about this matter since not many of my friends like that fact behind the postponed date of Go Live.

well, I don’t really know about the others, but personally, i feel grateful about this fact. not because i (might) could stay longer in this beautiful place (which i haven’t explored yet), but because I could catch my breath for awhile. previously, my team work like a slave, countless over times since the last month, and we have to sacrifice our week end to make sure our work done in time. not healthy for both our physic and mental.

with this new schedule, we could have more time for ourselves, and practically could deliver a better job (hopefully) with this kind of fact.

the negative side, though (if there any), is that the city-kinda-people-type won’t feel too happy about this. longer time in this Jurrassic office :D

well, there’s always two sides of story in everything. And I choose the positive one ;)

Cheers,